Today wasn't terrible by any means, just, I guess I was just feeling, different.
Some good, some okay.
At some points I've felt really good and at others I've felt really sick.
When I woke up this morning, I felt really good.
I was a little hot, but I wasn't dizzy, or tired, or nauseous, or in pain.
When I got to my grandparent's house I got extremely tired.
Like I sat down and I was fighting to stay awake.
If you know me, you know that I sleep when I have to, but if I can stay awake I prefer to.
I ate lunch and took my medication and I felt better.
I had Chai Tea (decaf) with my lunch, which is so good.
I'm like addicted to coffee and tea now.
I still had to force myself to eat because I still have zero appetite.
I love fruit, and I couldn't eat some kinds because of my acid reflux.
Well I tried orange slices yesterday and pineapple chunks today with an antacid and I had no heartburn, which makes me happy in some weird way.
Well then I got my SAT scores, and I rocked it (above the average).
I'm so happy and relieved.
My mom got me congrats balloons, which are cute.
I feel like at that point, I should have been running around the house celebrating, which I did to some extent.
But I wasn't my usual perky self at that moment.
I guess I was purely exhausted because I went home and fell asleep.
I had a fever of over 100 also, which like knocks me out.
I feel like my stomach medicine is somewhat working in terms of nausea.
I was hungry for dinner so I ate a sandwich and microwave popcorn, and it actually popped this time.
The only problem is I'm constantly stuffed and don't want to eat.
Not like in an eating disorder, restricting way, but in a I have no appetite at all kind of thing.
Right now I'm so freaking hot I can barely standing.
My skin feels like it's on fire.
I just took my temperature and I still have the same degree of fever.
I'm supposed to call my doctor tomorrow and give him a progress report.
I plan on getting my vitamins this weekend because even though I'm less fatigued, when I stand up I see spots a few times a day.
It's no where blacking out, but its kind of like I lose my balance and have to focus on standing up and see tiny black spots for a few seconds.
It's not like it never happened before, so it doesn't really freak me out at this point.
What I'm doing now is still working on my motivational posters.
I changed my mind of the design of them a dozen times or so, but I finally found something and am making myself to stick to it.
They look really cool.
I'm making posters with inspirational quotes and pictures on them from my camera, and even some my mom, dad, and grandpa took.
Then I'm going to put them in a photo album so that I can see them when I need a little boost.
I'm making one for some of my family members and my boyfriend.
I got the photo books and glittery stickers for them along with tiny jewels, and I must say they look awesome.
I was going to go to this amusement park on Saturday for the Halloween thing with my mom, dad, and boyfriend, except now my dad has to work so he doesn't want to go, and my boyfriend can't go, and my grandparents can walk all over because of my grandma's leg.
My mom and I might go anyway.
I love going places and holidays, especially Halloween, and Christmas and Thanksgiving and my birthday of course.
So tomorrow I'm going to try to hang out with my boyfriend and my grandparents.
My grandma needs to go get my grandpa pants for his birthday, so we might just all go and then go out to eat somewhere.
I might want another pumpkin pie cream ice too!
So overall, my mood is pretty good right now.
I guess before I just really, really, needed sleep.
I feel so good when I'm rested, but when I start to get tired it's like I'm in a battle, fighting.
I cannot sleep all day constantly, it's just not something I can do.
I'm basically drinking caffeine for lunch and dinner so I can stay awake.
I'm drinking diet coke, diet sweet tea, and of course tea and coffee, and drink juice with my medicine too, but that doesn't really matter.
I was thinking that it feels good to write again and stick to it.
Before I would write, delete my posts, and stop for awhile.
I love to write and I love blogging, so this works really good for me.
I guess I should thank my friends for getting me into this website.
I'm kind of looking forward to this weekend.
I get to see my boyfriend and grandparents tomorrow, then I'm hanging out with my mom, or my mom and dad.
I don't get to see them very much because of their work and my not doing school.
I just hope everything works out for once in my life.
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