I know I didn't get to write last night.
A lot of things were going on.
I didn't go to church yesterday because I felt sick in the morning.
I went to lunch then with my mom and dad and boyfriend when I felt somewhat better.
The food was so good, but I was barely able to eat.
I just didn't have much of an appetite and my stomach was basically rebelling on me again.
I had those terrible stomach feelings, like if I eat one more bite, it won't be pretty.
When I got home, I went for a walk to the park with my boyfriend.
We had fun and stuff, and I felt pretty good.
We went back to my house and played a game with my mom and dad, and I was still feeling good.
After that, it hit me like a ton of bricks.
That bad, sick feeling.
I laid down on the floor and just wanted to hide my face.
Then I got extremely cold, like freezing my butt off I don't know what to do cold.
The door was open, but it was a really nice day out, it wasn't cold cold by any means.
I went upstairs to get a sweatshirt and ended up laying down on my bed and falling asleep on my boyfriend.
When my mom and I went to take him home, I got some hot coffee to drink.
After that, I don't remember much besides falling asleep.
I woke up after awhile and ate a little bit of something for dinner.
Then I got really bad pain on my right side around my ribs
The acid reflux medicine had been helping, but I still get pain on occasion.
I didn't know what to do besides lay in bed.
Eventually I fell asleep again.
I remember waking up to take my night time pills and wanting to stay awake, but immediately falling back asleep.
It was almost like I had no power in me to stay awake.
I tried to wake up this morning but I couldn't until after eleven o'clock and was still weak and exhausted.
After getting out of bed, I found it difficult to walk.
It felt like I was just going to collapse out of pure exhaustion with every step I took.
I managed to eat breakfast and get dressed.
My grandpa came to get me and we went to get me a frozen decaf pumpkin spice late because I was really thirsty and am trying not to get dehydrated.
Right now, I can barely type.
I just took all of my morning medicine, plus two antacids and my IBS medicine.
My boyfriend came to see me after work at my grandparent's house.
We sat and talked for awhile, because he's concerned about me, and it's easy to talk to him.
It's kind of weird here today, because my grandma is in a lot of pain in her leg.
My grandpa is mowing the lawn and he's in a lot of pain with his arthritis.
I feel like, they're still doing stuff, even though they're in pain, so why shouldn't I?
I think about that for a second and realize, it's not a competition.
I physically have nothing I absolutely must do, and neither do they.
I'm trying my best just to get by right now.
I put in a call to my doctor and he's supposed to call me back soon.
I don't know if it's the low iron causing me to feel sick or what, but whatever it is, I desperately need help of some kind.
I should have eaten lunch about an hour ago, but yet again, I really can't.
I know to some extent that if I don't eat while taking my medication I will feel worse.
Yet I can't stop taking my medication, so it's a double-edged sward.
At this point, I'm going to wait for my doctor to call and see what he has to say.
I'm feeling very uncomfortable in my stomach right now.
I just want this to be over.
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