Today is the Monday before Christmas...
For me it's a sit back and listen to David Guetta type of night...
And that's exactly what I'm doing right now....
I feel like redecorating my blog, I really do.
I feel like things need some mixing up right now.
I didn't get to tell all of you, I got accepted to my first choice college... and I start in the middle of January!
I was kind of on the fence about this one ever since I sent the application, like, oh my gosh, what am I getting myself into, but now that I'm accepted, I'm kind of excited.
I am a declared Psychology Major, and am actually extremely happy about that.
If you know me, you know that Psychology is like my passion, my obsession, etc.
I'm going to scan my paper in tonight and send it off to the college so I can (hopefully) get into the classes I want.
If things work out the way I hope and pray they do, I will be a full time student taking five classes.
I just really want to get these classes, because they're required and recommended for my major and they actually sound interesting.
I'm hoping to take a psychology course, some kind of sociology, some kind of math, analytical reading and writing, and something else which totally escapes my mind.
I really get excited each year to get my binders, school supplies, books, and all of that stuff.
Plus this year I get to buy the books, and keep the books, and write in my books, and in some ways that's actually exciting.
I wouldn't say I'm bouncing off the walls about starting college, but I am defiantly excited for some aspects of it.
For example, I can finally say, I'm living my dreams, I'm a psychology major, I'm going to college, I'm doing something with my life and everything I've learned.
It feels almost like a fresh start, which I guess it really is.
I can leave that high school drama and craziness behind me, I'm not in this 'holding zone' anymore either.
So that's my news about college.
I finally, finally, printed my graduation project (a book on Eating Disorder Awareness) and gave out my first autographed copy tonight, to my therapist.
I have twelve more to deliver, well, four to deliver to my other doctors anyway.
I'm hoping I can call their offices tomorrow and find some time this week when I can drop off their books and actually give them to them.
I also included a soundtrack: the first CD with songs about 'how it feels' to have an eating disorder, depression, and all that good stuff, the second CD full of inspirational music.
Plus, I made a DVD with a copy of my graduation project visual presentation on it, and a copy of my movie called 'Leave A Light On' which is about the truth of the whole 'Pro Anorexia and Pro Bulimia' world, and what really goes on with Anorexia and Bulimia in some places, it's really interesting and eye opening.
I'm really excited about having a copy of my book in my hands, well, actually wrapped in Disney Princess wrapping paper under the little Christmas tree we have.
I feel so accomplished.
I graduated high school.
I wrote a book.
I got accepted to college.
I am a psychology major.
I am in recovery.
It is such a good feeling to have actually.
I'm kind of a little on edge, like, agitated, but I'm by no means anxious about this all.
I kind of differentiated the whole 'agitated' from 'anxiety' thing, with the help of my therapist.
For me, agitation is more me feeling like on edge, uncomfortable, like somethings right but somethings wrong, that type of thing.
And anxiety is more of me being nervous, shaking, and having panic attacks.
So I'm just a tad agitated, but nothing I can't handle.
I guess it's because of everything coming up and all.
Tomorrow I'm going to be with my grandparents, calling my eye doctor to get new contacts ordered, and trying to get to my doctors somehow to give them their copy of my book as a Christmas present.
Wednesday I'm trying to figure something out to do with my dad, and then we're all (my mom, dad, grandma, grandpa, possibly my aunt, and me) going out to dinner for my parents anniversary.
Thursday is getting close to Christmas, and I will be with my grandparents again and possibly my boyfriend because he has off work.
Friday my mom starts Christmas break and I'm exchanging presents with my boyfriend.
Saturday I open presents with my mom and dad in the morning, because it's Christmas eve, and then I go to church at night, and over to my aunt's house.
Sunday then is Christmas of course, which I will be spending with my mom, dad, grandma, grandpa, and aunt, after going to church in the morning.
I guess that's kind of overwhelming, but at the same time reassuring because I know what's going on, and that somehow helps me with my depression, or so I've learned.
I also want to do some kind of photo project with photo editing on my laptop and then some hand drawn art.
I went to the craft store today with my grandpa and got these five sketch pads and this thing with markers, colored pencils, crayons, oil pastels, and paint, which I think is pretty cool.
I really want to make something, I just have to kind of think about what I'm going to do so I don't like start and stop, or ruin it or anything.
So right now I'm going to finish some Christmas cards with my mom, have a snack if I can stomach one (I've been gagging on almost any type of food lately), and then work on something with my pictures.
Oh yeah, and I have to scan that paper for college.
Well I hope everyone has a wonderful week, and I will hopefully be posting again tomorrow.
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