In a lot of pain? check
Throwing up blood? check
Scared? check, check, and check again
I have an appointment tomorrow with my doctor at this hospital out of state (one of the best hospitals in the world actually, I just don't want to name names or anything on here, I don't feel comfortable with that).
I'm kind of extremely freaked out because I am in pain, and I mean a lot of pain.
I know that I have pain a lot, and they're always like 'on a scale from one to ten how bad is your pain' to which my answer is I don't know actually, I just know I am in pain.
I also know that I threw up blood, and not just like a little dot of blood or anything, it, was, blood.
I don't want to describe it to gross the sick of stomach out or anything, plus I don't even know how I would explain it, but I know it was blood.
I also know that my pain is getting worse, and I don't know what to do, because I think I should be in the emergency room right now, yet I want to hold on until tomorrow at noon.
I keep telling myself, tomorrow at noon, tomorrow at noon, just hold on, breathe, and hold on.
But I'm in a lot a lot of pain, and my mind keeps bouncing back between should I go to the emergency room or not.
The pain is mainly in my upper left abdomen, in the front, sometimes rotating a tiny bit towards the back, and just an uncomfortable feeling in my abdomen.
I'm honestly praying that I don't get admitted to my fifth hospital.
I know I'm probably over thinking everything, but, if someone has symptoms like me, with my medical history, most doctors would probably have to do something.
I have had an endoscopy before, but luckily it was along with a colonoscopy so I was under anesthesia.
They even were kind enough to give me Xanax, so I was out, even when they just gave me like a drop of anesthesia.
I'm going to go to bed, because I now have thirteen hours until I can be seen by my doctor.
Say a prayer for me please, because I know I am going to get through this, but any little bit of help would be awesome.
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