Oh, Johnny Wishes He Was Famous...

Just a little side note for everyone. Look up the lyrics to the song Innocent by Our Lady Peace. It's by far one of my favorite songs ever. I'm also listening to it right now. It's really inspiring to me. I'm thinking right now how everything is going to change this week, and I'm more than ready for it. I really want to do some positive things for myself. I want to continue exercising by doing Pilates. I did exercise Sunday and it really felt amazing. I want to continue doing that starting tomorrow. I start college on Wednesday and have an orientation meeting with my supervisor on Tuesday afternoon. My supervisor also happens to be my psychology teacher so I am really happy for that. Besides exercising, I've kind of been slacking on the stuff my dermatologist gave me for my skin. I think it's a big hassle but yet my skin is improving. I'm going to resume taking a bath in the morning and a shower in the evening, using the special soap and moisturizer and antibiotic stuff. It's not that I don't bathe or anything it's just so annoying to be on a schedule and have to take a bath and a shower both every single day. I really want to cut and dye and highlight my hair tomorrow. My roots are growing out and I want something different. Like nothing drastic. I just want a slightly different color, maybe a little shorter in length, and either straight or wavy. I hate going back and fourth with this straightening my hair and not doing anything with it. I want to look like a college student, who takes pride in her life. Especially in her studies and how she looks. I want to be well rounded and take pride in every aspect of my life. I'm a college student. Psychology major. Recovering from anorexia and bulimia. And most importantly, taking pride in who she is and loving life. I figured out my homework schedule out too. For my day classes, I will do the homework after class. Wednesday nights homework I will do on Saturday's and Thursday nights homework on Sunday's. That way I have a moderate amount of homework each day and I'm not stressing myself out. I decided too that until my dad gets a job I will stay with him on Tuesday's and Thursday's and my grandma and grandpa Monday and Wednesday and Friday. I hope to spend Friday nights with my boyfriend (somehow) and breaks and one weekend day. It's going to be kind of crazy because he works and goes to school at night and I go to school every day and two nights. I'm sure we can stay strong and make this work. I am not totally worried about that. I kind of didn't mention my mom. I will spend nights when I don't have class and weekends with her. So I think that's pretty much well rounded for me. I'm also continuing with therapy every two weeks and doctors every three to so months. It feels so good to be at this point in my life. I know I will hit some bumps in the road. Yet I now know that I have the strength to movie on and keep myself going. I really want to sleep right now but I felt sick earlier because I had a tetanus and chicken pox shot today and they didn't really agree with me. I also forgot to take my depression medicine. For the second day in a row. The good or rather amazing news is that I'm off my antibiotics finally and am able to take my prescription pain medicine again. I really needed it tonight for pain and a fever. I think I will watch some YouTube videos for awhile until I get sleepier. It feels so nice to be in my warm bed laying down and resting. To m boyfriend and grandma and grandpa who are all sick I hope you feel better. Cheers to the freaking weekend.