So Listen Close

To say I am angry with two of my doctors is an understatement.
To say I am furious with two of my doctors is getting closer.
When I was discharged from the emergency room, I was told to call GI to ask about switching gastroparesis medication.
It even says it on my discharge papers, so I have proof.
I am transitioning from Dr. S, pediatric GI, to Dr. B, adult GI, so I straight out asked the doctor in the emergency room which one I should call.
We agreed that I should call Dr. S because even though I'm transitioning away from him, he still knows about me more than Dr. B, who I saw once.
So I called Dr. S and left a message about what the emergency room doctors said.
The nurse took the message and sent Dr. S the message via e-mail.
I got a call from the clinic, and was like, okay, it's Dr. S calling to help me.
But of course not, it was the nurse again.
Dr. S refuses to speak with me about my medication because I am no longer his patient.
Wait, now if I'm no longer his patient, then why am I seeing him in January? and why am I supposed to talk to him, according to the emergency room doctors, who, yes, are also doctors.
Isn't he technically still my doctor? or did he just decide to drop me?
I told the nurse that the doctor said to call and talk to Dr. S because he knows me, but that got me nowhere.
She said she was going to transfer me to the hospital operator, and that I should ask for adult GI and talk to Dr. B.
So I was slightly annoyed, but decided I would just leave a message for Dr. B.
Well her nurse is honestly the meanest nurse I have ever met in my life.
She was telling me how Dr. B wouldn't even talk to me unless I faxed over my medical records from the emergency room.
Wait now, I've been going to this hospital's clinics for years, and they never, ever needed my records.
They should trust me, shouldn't they?
I mean the doctors in the emergency room didn't send them copies, because it's actually not their concern, it's my medical doctor, Dr. K, it's his concern.
I don't want some lady I met once in my life, and don't particularly care for at that point, going through my information, analyzing me, not believing me, etc.
I told them no, and they said, well I could go get copies of them and bring them up at my next appointment.
Wait again, my next appointment is in April, and this is November, and I'm really sick.
They. Don't. Understand. At. All.
I was so angry, I just wrote down the fax number, and threw it away five minutes later.
Who are they to boss me around when all I want is to ask a question!?
I just need to know if I can up the dose of my gastroparesis medication because for goodness sakes I'm terribly uncomfortable!
But no, I need records faxed, before I can ask if I can change medication?
Shouldn't they believe me that I'm not having success with my medication?
I mean why the heck else would I want to change it?
I've never been medicine seeking or abusing, nothing like that.
So why won't they let me talk to a freaking doctor?
Don't they trust me? Apparently not.
I mean, I'm just, you know, terribly uncomfortable, and barely able to eat, no big deal, right.
Well apparently it's no big deal to them.
Yet it's a big deal to Dr. S when I lose weight, unintentionally, and he can call me anorexic and admit me to the hospital for a feeding tube.
When I saw that on the bill from insurance, I was furious that he would call me anorexic when I wasn't even trying to lose weight.
My stomach could not handle food, just like it can't now.
Another thing is Dr. B took me off of my IBS medicine 'because it was working well'.
Well, that's the stupidest excuse I have ever heard in my life.
I got permission earlier from my other specialist Dr. R, to go back on my IBS medicine temporarily, meaning until I can talk to GI.
Well, I can't even talk to GI, because they won't talk to me!
I never heard of something so stupid in my life.
I freaking need their help and they won't talk to me?
What the heck did I ever do to them?
I'm basically living off of medicine for acid, nausea, pain, spasms, and my stomach.
And they don't care that I'm miserable and taking all this medication?
I mean what the heck is all of this doing to my digestive system? what is it doing to my body?
My regular doctor, Dr. K, is off today, so I'm to call him tomorrow.
He is honestly an amazing doctor, a truly amazing doctor, but he doesn't feel comfortable playing around with my stomach medication usually, which is why I was sent to a GI specialist.
Who do I turn to?
Two doctors won't help me.
One doctor is in meetings for the rest of the week.
And my last resort, Dr. K, most likely won't be able to do anything, because, gosh I don't even know if he's legally allowed to.
This is freaking ridiculous.
I am switching GI doctors as soon as I get in contact with Dr. K or Dr. R again, and seeing if I can get one somewhere closer to home, or at another hospital.
One side note, when I was first referred somewhere for my anorexia, I went to this same hospital.
I literally had to pull myself out of the program because they were making me worse, defiantly not better.

I'm done, I'm so done with them, screw it, they're gone.
There go two stomach doctors, and one me with a messed up digestive system.
What the freaking heck do I do at this point?
God only knows.