Gotta Keep Your Head Up

I'm sitting here at the kitchen table with my mom while she corrects her school papers.
I'm drinking 'Candy Cane Lane' hot tea, which is really good.
I was basically miserable earlier, and then I took a nap, and since I woke up I'm doing better.
I went to the mall today with my boyfriend, grandma, and grandpa.
We ended up going to Bath and Body Works to get Christmas lotion and Christmas soap, and Kohl's to finally get my stockings.
They're so cute, with jingle bells and fur at the top, and I love them.
We went to the drug store to get my grandma's medicine.
My grandma was really grumpy, no offence, and it was making me kind of upset.
I guess I can't blame her personally because I know she's in pain and uncomfortable, but still it gets kind of upsetting.
If I would have written this post before, I would have been complaining about how miserable my day was and why me and all that good stuff.
I'm in better spirits now, so I'm trying to focus on the good instead of the bad.
I had a fever a little while ago too, which is also no fun.
My grandpa and I also ordered my pictures (finally, I know) for my photo albums.
Tomorrow I am going somewhere with my dad, since he has off work.
The rest of the week I think I'm going to make Christmas plates that we got and work on my Thanksgiving bags and Christmas stockings.
I know you're probably thinking it's too early for that, but I want to get these things started little by little.
I also had an idea for a small photo book for my family, and possibly make custom ornaments or something.
I don't know why but I love designing stuff now.
I feel like, I don't know, there are so many things I can do like that.
I'm kind of taking a break from my Anatomy, Psychology, Biology, and Trigonometry, because I think I just plain out need a break.
I need to focus on bettering myself at this time and on applying for financial aid and to college.
I was kind of getting mad tonight too because my belly button like swelled up and my ring won't fit in anymore.
I don't know if it's because my belly button is swollen just from me having the ring in, or if I gained weight.
I know I gained weight since this Summer, and didn't really mind.
Now it's kind of discouraging because I have to let my holes grow closed, at least until the swelling goes down.
I am determined, however, not to let this stop me, because I can always get it done again next year if I really want to.
My stomach has been settling down, thank goodness.
I still can't eat a lot a lot, but I was able to eat three meals and two snacks today.
I just get extremely bloated and uncomfortable, but not much nausea anymore.
I'm thankful for the no nausea part.
As far as the fatigue goes, it's just doing okay.
I think I just needed sleep to get me feeling better.
So since I slept earlier, needless to say I'm wide awake now.
I'm going to stay up a little later yet, but sleep when I get tired for sure.
Basically right now, I'm realizing that I do need to look past the bad things, and I can get through this, because I am stronger than I think.
I mean I only have to see my psychiatrist every three months and therapist every two to three weeks, which is awesome.
I still see my other doctors, like all of them in the next two months, but it's okay with me.
Not saying I love going to the doctor's, but they help me out so much, like I'm so thankful for my treatment team.
Oh, and I did get a new gastroenterologist in my hometown, instead of at the big hospital far away.
I just have to call and schedule with them.
I just scheduled with dermatology finally and I see them in January.
I have this pimply rash on my back, stomach, arms, and chest, which is really something I'm self-conscious about.
I haven't been hot and itchy in awhile, but sometimes I get very itchy skin too.
They have me on prescription antihistamines for that and I was actually able to get off of them.
I take them as needed, which feels good because it's one less pill.
I'm taking my stomach medicine as I was before at this point so I am feeling better in terms of reflux and spasms.
It's just this feeling of fullness and discomfort, so I can't really complain.
I guess so is life, as long as I'm managing, I'd say I'm doing just fine.